#PUBGChickenCarry – Thank You

On 30th September, the Twitch community raised over £3,000 for the mental health charity Mind as part of the #PUBGChickenCarry.

Despite a nervous week or two prior to the event, when me and over half the would-be carriers discovered I’d bloomin’ booked my event on the same weekend as the qualifiers for Twitchcon’s Broadcaster Royale (my bad), we managed to pull off an event that raised money and awareness – with over 3,000 viewers watching concurrently at the broadcast’s peak (thanks to a cheeky host from Sacriel).

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Without further ado, here’s a list of some of the incredibly generous people who helped me put the first ever #PUBGChickenCarry together…

The carriers… Scoom, Weefreemen, Annabanana_TV, Cyanide, MrTweeday, AndyPyro, Spamfish, Two Angry Gamers, Sacriel, Esquire, TechGirl, MrAlexDanger, Henry “BigTruck” Cartwright, and channel community members The Saiint, ThatHawko, Unas84, verity45, Zaramath and FreeloaderHS.

The hosters and raiders… there were a load of generous Twitch channel hosts from the community – so to each and every one of you – thank you so much. Raids from Sacriel, and TSM’s Rawryy and Break were particularly huge boosts for the stream.

The donators… from £5 to £200 – I can’t quite get my head around the generosity of you lot. (You can still read their messages and donate here.)

The designer and the coder… Nicholas Brigando put together the amazing promotional and overlay graphics together (see some of his work above), while my friend from Production.GG Adam Mumfrey created code to pull in the Just Giving donations into the overlay. (The wonderful Okaydrian also hooked me up with coder Ehsan Kia, who I hope I get to work with in the future – you two are ace.)

The sponsors and the platform… Dan Whittal – the EMEA community manager for PUBG, my agent Ben Woodward and the team at Code Red, and Amahni Evans from Twitch – your support means everything. Also, to Doug, who patiently read out 20 weapon skin key codes to me as I logged them into a spreadsheet for giveaways.

THE MOD SQUAD! Isobelle77, JT5ingh, QuantumDelta – ❤ ❤ ❤

The swag givers… Simms, Sacriel (what an MVP) and Simon.

To everyone who watched and spread the word… thank you.

(We had a laugh, didn’t we? Shall we do it again sometime…?)

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The Charity Chicken Carry

A year ago, I said goodbye to my friend Ben on the train back into London from Luton Airport.

A group of us had just spent the week in Southern France and Italy. I’d flown straight from the chaos of running the Twitch Stage at gamescom 2017.

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It had taken me time to adjust to being abroad for holiday, rather than work, one day bordering on a panic attack as we swam in actual seawater on an otherwise idyllic boat trip, powered by Aperol and a French skipper, (who had casually mentioned jellyfish before our group jumped in). Ben had noticed my fear and paddled towards me, guiding me back to the boat. He was not someone who left his friends behind.

I didn’t realise that the last time I would see Ben would be on that train.

And yet – here’s the thing – Ben was never going to not be around. He lives on at gatherings, in the WhatsApp group his devoted friends created in his memory. In stories, impersonations of his unique mannerisms and phrasings, and in the bizarre newspaper articles we send each other that he would undoubtedly have discovered first for our amusement.

How my boyfriend Matt managed to deliver the eulogy at Ben’s funeral, I’ll never know. It’s available to read online at an initial fundraising page set up last year, and reading it still makes me sway dramatically between laughter and tears.

I’ll never be able to understand the decision of taking away one’s own life, but I know that it is an internal debate that effects so many people. Therefore, I’m planning to hold a fundraiser for Mind (a UK-based mental health charity) in October, and I want to call on members of the PUBG community to get involved.

If you’re a competitive PUBG fan, you may have seen me pop up at various PUBG tournament desks, or brandishing a mic onstage. I love talking about the game at its highest level, and the teams involved.

However, if you’re familiar with my Twitch stream, you’ll also be aware that I’m a horrible PUBG player.

I panic, I wail and scream, I shoot bushes. Oh, and never, ever let me drive. Seriously.

So I thought I’d call on the pro players I get to discuss at events such as DreamHack and WSOE, and see if they’ll give up a bit of their time to try and make me a better player, along with the talent I share the stage with – my chicken dinner count is currently two and during the first of those my computer died mid game, so I wasn’t even there to see it. It’ll be an arduous task for them, so in a way, you’re kind of sponsoring them more than me…

Although the details are still flexible, the action will most likely play out over an eight hour stream on my Twitch channel, while my fellow squad members will be encouraged to stream and do some fundraising of their own (I’ll likely invite Twitch streamers to join also). I’ll be rotating squads every hour. I currently think Saturday 29th September Sunday 30th September may be a good date, but there may be clashes with online leagues, so will be happy to take feedback on whether this date is suitable.

I’m looking for pro players and Twitch Partners who are interested in joining me to get in touch asap – a DM on Twitter or emailing me is the best option. The same for sponsors, or anyone who would like to be involved in some way.

Thank you.

Dealing with downtime

The Summer so far has been hectic so far…

…Or at least it was, until August. Suddenly I’ve found myself with a few weeks of respite (bar the odd shoot for the Nintendo Labo UK YouTube Channel or episode two of the Omen Esports Report)

After I got back from PGI (PLAYERUNKNOWN’S Battleground’s Global Invitational in Berlin) I was ready to keep running, until one day I wasn’t; I decided to record some voice lines as a favour to someone and then just stop. (And by stop, I mean playing video games offline, rather than on my Twitch channel.) In some ways, I was scared of a pause, in case I decided to extend it. However, I had a Google Keep list to keep up with, and so there were tasks awaiting my attention (“blog” has been written on it for ages).

At the start of this week, fresh from a wedding between two beautiful friends in Ludlow, where for once I managed to avoid checking my social media into the double figures, I felt myself coming down with something… But I also had eaten everything and anything I fancied for the past week; I needed to go to the world’s most strenuous gym class, prep a video pitch and stream. Then an early start on Tuesday for a Nintendo shoot in Britstol. Wednesday was for buying new hosting clothes (my word, the amount of clothes you need for events is astounding), prepping for gamescom and yoga. Sure, I felt a bit wobbly, but I’d just work through it, right?

It turned out Thursday would be for learning my lesson and croakily not being able to get out of bed… so apologising to my Twitch community for my absence, I propped myself up with a couple of pillows and finally got round to editing a vlog from PGI.

I wasn’t enjoying being ill, and yet… something about it gave me an added sense of urgency. Instead of doing the most urgent things on my to-do list, I was mopping up the bits I’d relegated into the unessential zone.

Case in point; it had taken me over two weeks to finally get down to editing and publishing my latest showreel. I had everything I needed – including relatively good health – but something always “cropped up”, until I silently pledged not to stream until it was done. In a way, it reminded me of those development tasks I had in previous jobs where I knew I could get it done, but pushed it back time and time again.

But feeling poorly… well now I was obliged to not do anything, and it sucked. I’m writing this on Friday, after another day of cold-angst and it still sucks. This isn’t like the old days of being ill, putting on an out of office and shutting out the world. (Freelancers everywhere – I get it now.)

So I made a deal with myself; rest today, and you may very well leave the flat by tomorrow evening. Amazon Prime has kept me firmly on the sofa for all ten episodes of UnReal series one. Running up and down the stairs has been kept to a minimum. By this evening I had decided some gameplay capture for a future video would be fine; but no voice chat. No audience. (And yes, I allowed myself to write this blog – because the only thing I love more than a to-do list, is crossing things off it.)

Hopefully the respite has worked its magic, and I’ll be right as rain tomorrow, or at least by next Tuesday – that’s when I head to gamescom, where I’ll be hosting the Omen Challenge PUBG tournament alongside ace casters wtfmoses and Matrym.

In fact, it’s especially important for this reason; when I decided to give full-time hosting a shot, gamescom was my first “milestone” to mark that I could do this for the long-haul. Being asked to go is a confirmation that I’m on the right path – but I’m also aware it’s one event, and the hard work will never be over… except for this week’s attempted pause – which may have turned out to be the hardest task of all!